I finally watched The Business of Being Born. I have both been looking forward to it and avoiding it all at the same time. I was pregnant with Little Bird when it was in theaters around here, and I wasn't brave enough to go and see it. I knew the basic message was in the over medicalization of birth, and I really wanted to stay with my OB. For some reason, I thought that she was wonderful and would make rainbows appear at Bird's birth.
If she had been at Bird's birth, then maybe she would have. Since she wasn't, we'll never know.
Instead, Dr. Jackass attended Bird's birth.
There is one thing I will not do, and that is question the way Bird came into this world. He and I got him here just like he needed to arrive.
However, there are things I don't have to do again, and won't be doing again. They are as follows:
- I will not be spread eagle in front of Dr. Jackass and have him roll his eyes at me for not pushing the way he thought I should push.
- I will not be in a position where I have to argue in the midst of my questionable pushing on whether or not a scalpel will be taken to my ladybits.
- I will not return to Rex Hospital where I had to fight the nurses day and night to breastfeed my child.
I will be strong, prepared, and accepting. My baby and I will make our own rainbows.
Now, I just need to stay pregnant.