Stella said the other day that all the internet was filled with crickets chirping.
It's true.
I know the world is holding their breath with news about Susan. I know that thousands of people care about her, her family, and her well being.
The thing is, this is a quiet time. There are going to be crickets.
Know that Susan is well loved. She is totally cared for. Surrounded by family. Everything she told you in her latest post.
But I can't share her with you anymore. I just can't. Not right now.
The world loves Susan. I'm grateful for the support and friendship and love everyone has shown her. So very grateful. Please forgive me for needing to hold her within my own heart right now. I have to hold on as tight as I possibly can.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Crickets
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what i want is to wrap you in an enormous hug. this must be so hard on you. much love....
ReplyDeleteOh Marty, I so understand. I wrote to you earlier this month and said that though I wish neither of us had experienced this, I've been where you are. When I went through this, those around me just had to understand that my silence was speaking volumes, that my heart was tied up with my loved one. I'm just writing to tell you that when you need it, I'll be here. Ready to read and be there for you, somewhere out there in this crazy cyber-world where we can reach out and be there for others. Take care.
ReplyDeleteWhat Maggie said. xo
ReplyDeleteBeyond understandable, Marty.
ReplyDeleteAs much as many of us love Susan, none of us can know the love you have for her.
But know that we are holding BOTH of you in our hearts. For as long as you need.
Totally understandable. I've been thinking about you a lot lately (and Susan too, of course). Don't mind the crickets. Do what you need to do. xoxo
ReplyDeleteOf course. Taking a big step back... while still thinking of you all, every minute.
ReplyDeletexoxo CGF
I'm so sorry you have to go through. All I can do it say ditto Magpie.
ReplyDeleteI've been holding you and Susan in my intentions this week, wishing strength and grace for you and everyone else in Susan's life who are circling around her now. This must be so, so hard for all of you--and of course where you need to hold your energy and your love is in the intimate space where you are.
ReplyDeleteI hope all the loving energy those of us at a distance hold is someday, somehow a comfort for you, too. You are a wonderful friend--no one could ask for better.
Know that in my head, I'm asking you about her every day. But out loud, I almost never do because I don't want to make you put words to things you don't want to say. And because I know I have nothing particularly useful to say in return.
ReplyDeleteBut I will still be here when you need me.
I've been thinking about you and Susan. Sending you hugs and take all the time you need.
ReplyDeleteSending you strength.
ReplyDeleteLove you.
ReplyDeletelove you, marty
ReplyDeleteSo understandable. Hang in there Marty. xOxO.
ReplyDeleteIt's ok. It's perfectly ok to feel this way. Don't apologize for it. Don't be sorry about it. To most of us, she is an inspirational novel playing out a post at a time on a blog. To you, she is your real life BFF. You don't know us, but we know you. Much love to all. Real, heart felt love. I am a 29 yo. man, and my life has been untouched by cancer. But I love you, and Susan, because you touched me at a level far deeper than you could possibly know. Stay strong, stay in love, and we'll all pray for you.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking of you too. I can't think of one of you without the other. xoxo
ReplyDeleteOf course. Do what you need to do--for yourself and for her. Just know how many people are holding you, Susan, and her family in our hearts and prayers.
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